Semi was amazing ill say that much. i mean i thought it was going to be horrible and the whole week pretty much before hand made me go all up and down and wicked confused and the moment everyhting went to hell it seemed to pick back up only to drop me back down on the ground again. repeatedly. over, and over, and over again. It was horrible but semi itself was amazing.
first of all Hari went, do u have any idea how happy that made me??? first of all its HARI!!!!! nothing else rlly needs to be said there everyone on the face of the earth should just KNOW how AMAZING she is and i havent hung with he rin a while and i miss not being able to hang out with her every day. its just not right!! separation from hari is like the end of the world i hate it!!!

but anyway yessss Hari went and Lysha SHOULD have gone but nooo everyone blames me for not bringing her brother as a date. IM SORRY!!! yall could have taken him too you know!!!!! but lysha didnt go which wasnt cool cause her going would have only added to the amazing fun i had and if she was there the night would have pretty much benn 99% perfect instead of 95%. when ur in the ninties like that, every point makes a huge impact because u reach a level of happieness thats hard to grasp unless your feeling it then and there. i cant even grasp how happy i was most of the time. it was pure bliss for two and a half of the three hours. and after the dance i was able to sleep over Emmas house!! it was fun im never over there anymore. and her foster kitten Jake (sarahs love in cat form) was soooo cute but SOOOO annoying i think i got about three hours of sleep total. but i didnt mind. but semi first of all was awesome because of the biggest surprise EVER

yes i get everyone else pretty much figured it owuld happen but i figured it owuldnt so shut up!!!! CIDRA SHOWED UP IT WAS LIKE BAM AND ALL OF A SUDDEN I LOOK OVER AND ITS LIKE "OHMYGOOOOOOOOD WHERE THE HELL DID YOU COME FROM!!" i completly ignored the fact that i was in a dress and ran over and jumped on her. im sure she could feel the love from it. it was amazing though from then on it was like a blur everything went by so fast i was too happy to realize what was rlly going on i had no idea if i went from group to group i could barely walk in a stright line im sure i would have failed a drunk person test because of the sheer adrenaline coursing through me. I LOVED IT!!!! i tried waltzing with hari which was fun but neither of us rlly had a clue what we were doing and Alex apparently noticed that and left harley and rushed over to try and teach me how to ball room dance and that was awesome. i was too blushy and all "omg im near alex" to rlly grasp the fact that i was dancing with him then. then Harleyt stole him after and i realized "ohh....he was with me....and now hes gone....and there he goes....well uh....dan i hate harley right now but ill smile anyway!!!" and that was sorta where the unhappy half hour came in, but rlly the rest of the dance was like "CHYEA BOY!!!" and i know im white dont make fun of me! i met Christian who is amazing, meeting new ppl doesnt rlly go well with me and i usually make a fool of myself but Christian was like rlly rlly rlly RLLY friggin nice and amazing and funny. hes TAAAALLL too omg O_O i had to look straight up. i loved it!!! lol and we fought over the song Sandstorm, abt ownership of it. we missed like half the song because of it too. and shortie was there and we grinded (very sad attempt) and i slow danced with Alex to Fireflies, rlly slow danced with him and it was like the best moment of my life but i wont let it get to my head, we're friends, just friends and i doubt it will be more even if i want it to be..... heh. ANYWAY

yeah so i danced with alex like three times although harley intervened on the last one and it was sorta rude...ish but ill live. uhmmmmmmaaaa.....what else...hari was there did i say that???? it was awesome!! ^.^ SHE PARTY BOY'D ALEX THREE TIMES!! IT WAS LIKE THE HIGHLIGHT OF THE DANCE OMG!!! i got her to party boy him from the back twice and then a full on party boy and his face was priceless omg Hari i love you so much. very nice introduction for both of u i think although would the first intro include u malling him in the hall for Tainted??? God i love my friends so much. Sarah Peck danced with Darian!!! omg it was sooooo cute!! and i gothis number for her today it was aaweosme except when she was talking to me on the phone with Hari i couldnt hear a word either of them said cause they were on the bus and screaming into my ear and emma didnt know and told me i failed at delivering messages to ppl (darian) but i couldnt hear what they were saying!! i told them to shut up and talk slooooooowly but they didnt hear me and anyway if the convo went according to plan then it wouldnt have been fun right? so nyaaaa. uhm what else, Ashley wore heels and towered over everyone, the DJ didnt horribly suck, Seth had a cool dress on but Shorties was cool too. i was craving pizza the whole time, I DIDNT CRY ONCE OHHHHH NEW RECORD FOR ME!!! although i did have a sad half hour and sarah and emma and cidra know abt that but ANYWHO. it was ther best nigthe ever. i got to see almost EVERYONE all in one night, i slow danced and hung with alex whenever Harley wasnt hogging him like a jerk...no offense if she ever reads this....ok truthfully i dont care if she does or not ANYWAY AGAIN

Saturday night i slept over cidra house and SAW COLBY OMG "SHIZUKA CAN YOU FLY? CAN YOU FLY SHIZUKA? FLY!!! NOW BE A T-REX SHIZUKA, BE A T-REX!!!!!!!" "ARE YOU MAKING FUN OF JESUS FOR BEING CRUSIFIED?!?!!?" "faaaaaaaacebooooook. and i am going to be ashamed of EVERYTHING" ".....no ur not" ".....no....i'm not" omg that was the best time evger and the energy drinks and the everyhtign and YAY. although i had a huge headache most of the time and it figured once it goes away everyhting sorta went to hell that night and i feel bad abt it and thats sorta where the "in one of those moods" part of the title comes in. i had an amazing weekend up to that point. i found out someone was going out with someone and i sorta shouldnt care because i was told i didnt rlly have a chance and yet it still KILLED. like it seriously felt like my stomach was being wrenched open and my eyes stung so bad because i was trying not to cry and i was shaking hysterically and i didnt know what to do. cidras phone shut off at that EXACT moment. so i was left sorta in the dark with no answes. also alex was supposed to ocme over the next day and i was so mad at myself that i rlly, RLLY didnt want to see him. i didnt want to see anyone.

well because of that i think i got my friggin wish. cause he was supposed to come over at 11 but for some reason his mom had a boxing match and so their mass got moved to 11 and he couldnt MAKE IT there till 1, and guess what time i was leaving? yup. 1. so it was like a race to see if alex would hopefully get there first or my rents. i was crying and pacing back and forth BEGGING and PRAYING to a god i barely believe in that he would make it if only by pulling into the driveway while i walked out. but as u may already have guessed, my rents got there first. and two minutes AFTER i left, he came. my. luck. sucks. and it completely ruined the end of the weekend for me and also my rents FLIPPED on me abt NOTHING at all so i ended up calling cidra and fliping out and ti was horirble but yeah.

so now. im in one of those moods. where its like im happy because of everyhitng that hapened but im majorley upset abt stuff that happened too. and the emotions keep over lapping each other. theyre like fighting each other for dominance and trust me im on happy's side but its not rlly winning. And idk. its just like ".....TWO FRIGGIN MINUTE TIME DIFFERNCE!!! TWO MINUTES WHAT THE HELL?????????????????????" so now that thats out of my system. i have home made bread. since i told my dad i had some at cidras he bragged abt how easy it was to make it and next thing i know yummy warm bread is sitting in front of me with a bunch of butter and a glass of milk. *mouth waters* i love homemade bread.

oh btw at cidras house and because i feel the need to mention this we were doing shots of energy drinks in dixie cups. we started off with the cup almost empty and worked our way up until the cup was full. mind u i was pouring the drink. so this is entriely my fault. i put all of it in my mouth, it being way more than i intended and i started laughing at the fact that i couldnt swallow. if u laugh with that much liquid in ur mouth and u dont spit it out then and there, bad and painful stuff happens to you! i never in my life had to experience the horror of having anyhitng come up my nose. having energy drink suds go up, HURT!! i think it went to my eyes! they stung while i was crying and laughing at the same time!! i was in pain! it was awesome though! and cidras dad was in mid convo abt how i shouldnt be drinking it if my rents said no and how i should be more responsible when it happened and cidra and i BOTH expected him to flip out and he BUSTED OUT LAUGHING. cidras dad laughing...is funny!! and it didnt help the fact that i was trying to breath without losing the function of my lungs!!!! and of course, once i was able to take small breaths, cidra doesnt ask me if im okay and jsut calls colby to rant abt how much of an idiot i am. i was soooo loopy after that i couldnt even speak right and i coudnt remember words.

i think i kiled some brain cells.

but i think this journal is long enough and prolly has MILLIONS of spelling mistakes. im too lazy to go back and read them though so deal.

Shizuka out!!! 143 all!